H.U.M.A.N.S.

முகமூடி அணிகின்ற உலகிது...........

உன் முகமென்று ஒன்றிங்கு என்னது...............?????

Instead of acting in front , giving fake smiles and hugs, I rather show face or anger and get back to normal after few days or hours!!!! Could be nonsense for you..But this is my way!!

Sudden Changes!!!

She used to be a very good actress. Who is capable of putting a fake smile on her face no matter what happens.Let herself to get hurt so that others would not..

Lately, she is being too moody and getting angry easily..without realizing and considering how would others feel!! The fact that she is telling others how she feels drives her crazy!! This is so NOT YOU!!

A reminder for herself  : Take your time, close your eyes, take a deep breath...Things will be fine...
                                     Just gona be a second, therefore get over it and do not let it to lead you!!

Identity VS Culture & Moments VS Lifetime

IDENTITY...........
* How I would like to have my life and live my life...
* What are the things that I believe in...and what are things that I don't have faith in...
* How do I view certain things in life...What do I think about them?  
~ What is my decision? Which is my path??

CULTURE..........
* Accepted and anticipated way of life!!
* Religious facts and guidelines!!
* Strictly categorized as RIGHT or WRONG!! without ample consideration on situation and feelings..
~ Again, What is my decision? Which is my path??

Still wondering and cracking my head for the answers although I knew that I am just gonna end up being like how others want me to be and live an accepted and anticipated way of life......................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MOMENTS..........
* They just last for few seconds or minutes...yet the impact of it is truly deep and unforgettable...chase and follow us till our last breath.. 

LIFETIME.....
* Is it practical to decide a lifetime based on few moments???!!
No, I dont think so...
Yet, I am letting myself to sink in moments which are just going to be memories and make my life a question mark...

p/s: Whatever I have written here could be very confusing to you, Or even portray myself as a confused soul..BUT, the truth is I am not...Clear and aware enough to say that, my life..'my decisions...and I will face the consequences....'

நான் செய்த தீர்மானம்தான்.....

அதற்கு இந்த சன்மானம்தான்.......

அவமானம்தான்........!!!!

I am NOT A PRINCESS....when will I be ONE??...

Please GROW UP and LEAD US on....I am TIRED......When will u say that I WILL LOOK AFTER EVERYTHING and treat me like a princess??.... and wipe away my biggest fear and sorrow??....When are you going to prove that everyone else is wrong?? ...............

is it really COMPLICATED?? or are we MAKING IT COMPLICATED..

(R.E.l.a.t.I.N.O.S.i.h.p.) Am pretty sure that ALL of u read it correctly as 'relationship' even though it is spelled wrongly...  this is the mistake that most of us do when it comes to RELATIONSHIP!!! although its not relationship we tend to conclude it as relationship and assume that this is the one!

There are two different types of ending for every relationship..its either, u live happily ever after or separate after understand each other too much...!!!

Guys and girls...one way to live your life, while keeping up your relationship is to achieve an understanding that you both of have your own life..let each other to have that life, fulfill and enjoy that life..

All we need is some respect, understanding and given and take policy..Someone to get along...

don't think is she or is he the one once u have got into it..do it before take any decisions..rather than cracking ur head if she or he is the one make them the one.. WHAT IS SO HARD?

Sometimes, relationships depend on when u involve in it.. age matters..i didn't agree to this few years ago..but now i have to!! true enough..a relationship that u step into at the age of 17 and the age of 25 are different..it will make sense to everyone one day..its either we accept it or no..

and feelings alone are not going to drive a relationship till the end..it could be important to start one..but not to keep two individuals on track..LOVE happens under condition sometimes...

Why didn't you??.....

Everybody makes mistakes..Though we are good, firm and mature deep inside our heart, when there is opportunity to make mistakes we will...But, there are a few who overcome it after considering all the factors and consequences..I totally agree that doing mistakes is something common..but making your own ways to come out of it reflects how considerate and practical you are..Wasting six months effort for certain mistakes that happened in six hours is not fair..and wasting four years for some mistakes that happened in four months is TOTALLY UNFAIR!! Dear humans, it only takes a few minutes or a right soul to talk to in order to keep things clear, on track and come out of it....I DID..WHY DIDN'T YOU???...

~When GOD sends SOMEONE~

I believe that God sends everybody into our life with a valid reason. A lot of people come into our life..Some stay longer and some leave after a period of time..Its totally unfair to say that those who are still in our life are good and those who have left are not..Its just that everybody comes in with a reason...some come right on time..some come way too early..some come just too late where you would feel that they should have come a little bit earlier..for many reasons..Some reasons are acceptable and some are not..and we cant expect anyone to accept or understand...


Once again its all about feelings....no one is to be blamed..I used to undertsand this ...but now, i have obtained a better understanding and the true meaning of it. People always say we tend to see and comprehend things only if we go through the situation..true enough :)

Everything happens for a reason. I always believe in this too..and now this is the only thing that am gona believe and have faith..Used to tell myself and Now i can even assume and console myself why it would have happened in others life..

The impacts and the lessons that they teach us are priceless *that is the significant part as it keeps life to go on* :D..In that case, YOUR presence gave a new meaning..new hope..new faith..one more path to believe in human beings..Someone who made all my little and silly dreams to come true :)Since I felt all these and just because you are guy..I wont decide that its love...i cant feel it..or in the same way i would say because i have felt it deeply truly and madly once..So, probably i am comparing??!!Perhaps, no.. ;P

(or it could be..Am I trying not to mess things up??) WHATEVER!!!! If I were to think and analyse, its going to be a disaster!!!..Therefore, I decided to feel just the way I feel.. it might change the next day..next minute or even next second..let it to change when it is supposed to..I shall not force it..Just live the moment while thinking that it happens for a reason..Its all about how I NAME it..and I DON'T WANT TO NAME IT..





I have no idea what the reasons are..could be different situation, diffrent place, environment, contaxt or whatever. 

the hardest feeling is when you yourself cant tell and figure out how u feel..i dont want a person that i will run to everytime i am about to break..  i want to know that i will only have my shadow..Anyway, am glad that u came  in..its temporary yet the way I feel and memories that we made will be treasured forever :)

Its not as hard as I thought.. It could be hard but its      entirely possible :DDDDD

 None of the feelings are left unspoken..Its a bit weird for a girl to be too frank with her feelings..first time I did..n am GLAD ;D Lets just follow the flow, keep calm and carry on :DDDD

சின்ன சின்ன ஆசை :)

1. go on a road trip with friends..
2. Go on a cruise...
3. party all night..
4. get drunk and sleep like a pig one whole day...
5. buy a house for may parents...
6. Bungy Jump ( AND ITS DONE NOW) :D
7. Figure out what my favorite colour is..
8. Travel all around the world....
9. Have a travel partner....
10. scream from a bridge....
11. get wet and dance in rain....
12. Dance in the middle of a road.....
13. Skydiving....
14. Camping with friends...
15. A country a year.......
16. Try exotic food......
17. Having grandmother beside for my wedding......
18. Marry someone different from me..yet enjoy and accept those differences.....
19. Try all adventurous things in the world..
20. Meet someone who enjoys my playlist and go crazy over lyrics....
21. Morning walks with ears plugged......
22. Going for long drives at night ( Obviously am not the driver) :P
23. Going to beach and count stars with loved ones......
24. Lips that smile no matter what happens.......
25. Experience four seasons..* i did* thankx god for that..
26. own a charity home when I am 40......
27. Adopt a kid......
28. Going motorbike ride with appa  even when am 40 :)
29. Marrying someone who has family values......
30. someone who is willing to listen my stories of past..and tell me his stories....
31. make my parents proud for having me as a daughter...
32. Learn to play piano......
33. Complete my barathem.....
34. Have a wall of photos in my own house......
35. Hold hands with my husband and go for a walk in garden even when am 60......
35. Sleep in the same room..
36. Waking up late and go for breakfast plus lunch.......
37. Sitting in a cafe for hours and have coffees..... 
38. Learn how to take tablets ;(
39. Having a tattoo.........
40. overnights with friends.......
41. Someone who eats in the middle of the night and goes mcd :D
42. Take part in a flash mob
43. Donate blood and organs.. ( parents and awwa will kill me :P ) 
To be continued... 

~ my ANGELS ~

i always believe that GOD has created an ANGEL for every human being in this earth. In that case, am d LUCKIEST since he has given me nine BEAUTIFUL ANGELS!!! 




They are with me through thick and thin. Never left me alone..They are the ones who understand this AMALA very well without me uttering a word..They understand my silence more than anyone could. Am so glad dat God has shown all of u to me in dis birth..We never know whats gona happen tomorrow..ANYTHING can happen in this CRUEL yet MEANINGFUL life. sO, i would like turn this into a great chance for me to thank each and everyone of u for carving a wide smile on my face every time i Feel like going insane. I really dont have words to express my love and care towards all of u!! u gals made my sadness of not having a sister to disappear just in a moment!! I MEAN IT...all of u somehow made my life beautiful and gave as well as  giving me d courage to move on, face every stage and all dramas of life. I really appreciate all of it in every single way I could. I will treasure every moments that we spent, spending and gona spend soon and in future. Those can be considered as the most meaningful and awesome moments of my life.


Thank you ANGELS <3 <3 <3              


the A's <3


One of the sweet and caring girl that I have seen in my life. I know you love me a lot..But, remember dear..I love you more than that... Now and always <3


















You girls brought thousands of lights into my life :) I want to see us like this close to each other now and forever... I have lost my faith in most the things in life..EXCEPT FOR MY 
ANGELS..!!

I love you girls so much...I miss 
you all a lot....

the REAL HAPPINESS!!!!!

 OLD...GOOD days.............
How i wish to go back there and have all that memories once gain!!!

                                                                                                          

                                                                                                     

                                                                                                                                       

       an awesome day in  my life!!! just because of u girls!!!!!

Saree time gals!!!!! we have GROWN!! so fast!!!! I still remember the moments we were wearing school uniforms.... :D








I just want all of us to be together like dis forever..take care of each other..be there for each other....<3 <3 <3